Time.

i finally realized it, it's time i'm most afraid of.

not having enough of it.
not being able to find out who i'll be,
or if i'll be anyone.
being afraid of what i'll miss.

for a couple of years now, i've tried to kinda plan a future ahead.
i know i know, NO ONE CAN TELL THE FUTURE.
but i've liked to look at it as setting some goals.
for example, what i want to be, how many kids i want in the future,
what age i would liked to get married at, where i want to live.
but now that as of 2:38 am today, i was dumped for no reason at all.
all i am left saying is time still goes on.

and that brings me to something else,
everyone at least once in their life has wanted to stop time,
rewind time, change something. ughhhhh if that were only possible
i would have prevented mad shit. i'm so angry at myself.

it sucks. :/